Articles/Essays – Volume 16, No. 1
Missing Persons
I know where the bodies are buried
in my house and can whistle past
indefinitely before I must dig and sift.
Almost at once, the remains of a girl scout
at nine, her green uniform folded more neatly
than it was worn, the sturdy body quite gone.
A turquoise bib recalls the chubby boy
with oatmeal around the mouth that opened,
swallowed, despite the sound asleep eyes.
Lost her baby, I heard then, in between
those I kept; only to find the more
they survive, the more I lose them again.
What do I do now with this doll dress
my lastborn wore for ten miniature months?
How do I greet these ghosts who haunt
the remains of the children? The young
mother who dressed each child in red
for this photo? The weary one who rocks
until dawn? The yellowed newspaper girl
smiling like a bride? Under the most dust
I find the diary kept from twelve to sixteen,
about boys, often as not, keening for them
as if nothing mattered but scouting out love.
There is nothing here I can keep or discard.
I’m putting it all back, sprinkling dust
over the top and closing the closet door
as if, in the dark, the ghosts will rest.